…I got a big kid job! Sort of. It’s only a year contract, but if I do well and I like it, I may have a chance to do another year. And I’ll be working with refugees and immigrants! I am so excited. And nervous. But mostly excited. I’ve wanted to try my hand at a job like this for years. I miss being in an international community, and I miss feeling like I have an impact on someone’s life.
It’s all happening very quickly, and it requires me to move to Pennsylvania. The only memory I have of Pennsylvania was a brief trip when I lived in Maryland as a kid, to the Hershey theme park, and I rode my first upside-down roller coaster. In a way this sort of feels like that did. Terrifying in a way that I’m propelling myself into a completely new environment without knowing anyone. Like most humans, there’s a part of me that wants to stay comfortable. At least, I don’t thoroughly enjoy hanging upside down at the mercy of a machine. But also the idea of that new step into uncharted territory for myself is very thrilling, and part of me, despite all of the people I’m going to miss, wishes I could leave tomorrow.
One of the reasons I can’t is…I don’t have an apartment. I am struggling to find one online right now, but it’s difficult. Without seeing it, how do I know it’s a good place? Not to mention, some listings don’t even have pictures. I’m really nervous about that because I leave in exactly a month. I’m not taking my piece of junk car (maybe someday I’ll make a blog that’s a list of everything wrong with it, just as a memento), so I won’t even have my car to sleep in.
If anyone has any advice, whether it be a good website for finding apartments or good questions to ask about an apartment, I am all ears. I’ve found a good few that could be suitable, but without being there I don’t have much in the way of differentiating them.
As for Yuuki, we’ve been working on applications for colleges for him together for a few weeks now. It turns out that one of the colleges has a summer intensive English program, along with a year ESL program, and they think doing both would benefit Yuuki. In addition, they said if he studies hard, he may be able to begin taking credits in an undergraduate or graduate program while taking the English classes! So he might go for his master’s instead of a second bachelor’s after all. I am beginning to think that would be the best option.
It’s not for sure yet that he’ll do the summer program yet, but if he does, he’ll be in Pennsylvania before I am by about two weeks. That will be strange, but good for him, I think. I won’t be able to be his crutch. When I thought I’d see him in two months my heart beat a little faster. I kept telling myself not to hope too much, with all the times our and my plans have failed. But now that it seems so close, maybe just one month and less than a month until we can talk on a phone, it’s hard not to feel that excitement. It was beginning to feel like I was dating my computer, less than a real human being.
So cheers to avoiding soul-crushing disappointment! Hear, hear!